The Open

I have nothing to say today. Witch is weird, because I always have something to say, whether it's stupid or smart. I always bable my way through the days.

But today feels different. I am super excited, like I can't stop wiggleing (if that's even a word). I am excited because I want to be a better athlete, a stronger athlete, a faster athlete, a more skill full athlete. I'm excited because of the firebreather, it gave me motive to become who I want to become. But here's the thing, I'm also extremely mad at myself. I can't believe, after one year of crossfit I didn't have the guts to compete at the firebreather. Fuck. Disappointment, in myself. There's always next year. And I have no choice but to do it.

Here's the other thing that is making me super excited and weird at the same time. I'm having mixed feelings about the OPEN. Yes. I am. I want to do it, but at the same time I don't. Five weeks, five workouts, intensity, stressful moments are waiting for me. But I also remember last years OPEN. It was fun and it was the OPEN, that made me fall in love with crossfit, it was the OPEN that opened my eyes to the world of crossfit. (haha) It was the OPEN that motivated me to push harder, and train better.

But today, I don't feel ready for this shit. There is so much that I need to work on, so much that I need improvement. I feel like if I do it and fail, then I'm just going to be sad. It sounds really stupid, I know. Last year, I entered the OPEN, not knowing exactly what was on the line. Looking back on last years performance, I feel like I could have done so much better. Knowing this now, I feel like this year, I'm going to have to lay it all on the line. Every workout I do, I'm going to have to literally kill myself. This years OPEN to me will not be fun, at all. It's going to be the most competitive shit I have ever done. And I'm not competing against anybody, but myself. And that's how it should be for everybody. I want to prove myself that I have improved from last year. I want to prove myself that all the effort, all the smiles, all the tears, all the rips on my hands, all the blood, all the pain, all the frustrations and all the PRs were worth it. Maybe that's why I don't really want to do it and do it at the same time. I know what's coming.

BURPEES!!! 

The registration is now open! But the page doesn't work, so I'm good for another couple of days. Thinking about whether or not I do it. This sucks. I don't like feeling like this. Everybody should register. It's the only way you know if what you've been doing in the gym is good enough. And it's honestly really fun. Everybody is there cheering for you, pushing you harder, and you feel like an athlete.

GO REGISTER!

I had way too many chocolate covered almonds. mmmGOOD.

I've been cooking a lot lately, I'm coming up with legit deeeelicious ideas. All paleo recipes as well. I need to get more recipes so I can share them with you. Maybe I'll make a special food blog post tuesdays. That would be awesome!

ERIK BOURDEAU(you better share this shitty post!)

My wrists hurt like a bitch. Honestly, I feel like I can't get the work done with these wimpy wrists. Damm it. Damm you weak wrists.

I'm being a very annoying emotional bitch right now, I'm all over the place. What's going on? I think I might have realized that I haven't been working hard enough. That I've been in a comfort zone for too long. That's not good. And now with the OPEN coming up, I feel like shit. I feel like I don't know anything anymore. This is bad, really bad. I'm sorry for complaining on my blog. It's really not my thing to be insecure like this, but after seeing the girls work at the firebreather, I feel so weak.

I'm obviously going to do the OPEN, who am I kidding. But I'm really nervous, no jokes. I want to do good. Like really good. Like kill it. I don't even know what I should be aiming for. TOP 300 ? TOP 200? TOP 100? In Canada East you idiot, not world wide! JEEZ.

One year ago, at the OPEN WOD 2; Snatches

My latest action picture, difference?

Okay, new favourite songs, Justin Timberlake Ft. Jay-Z, Suit & Tie, and Jonn Hart Ft. Iamsu, Who booty!!!No you have never heard them at the gym, they are on my sexy playlist. BOOYA.

It's time. Let's do this. Let's register for the OPEN, it's a great experience, loads of fun, and it's the only way for me to see if I am actually moving forward or not. I just registered. See you on march 6th baby! 

Wearing nail polish at the gym sucks, because it comes off really quickly. Arg. 

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xoxo