Thursday, 21 November 2013

BELIEVE

It's been way to long! Never again will I not write a blog for two weeks! I'm sorry! Please forgive me!

I've had some trouble with my computer and Apple didn't know what the hell they were doing ! But it's fixed now and I still have to go back because there's a bunch of stuff that's not on my computer.

I'm a little mad... can you tell?

In the process, I lost all my pictures, which make me a very sad person ! And I also lost a bunch of applications, and that just pisses me off. I love technology until shit like this happens!

Also, I've been quite stressed lately... I have been waiting for the result of my life. I've been waiting to know if I had passed my OIIQ exam.. that huge exam I passed in september, remember? Well my friends, the wait is over,  I am now a REGISTERED NURSE!



I can't believe I did it! You know, it's really hard to believe in yourself when a lot of people don't. I had teachers telling me I shouldn't be an ER nurse because I wasn't competent enough. Some teachers doubted my every single move, and they even made me doubt myself. That is the worst thing that has ever happened to me, to doubt myself like I did back in school. Because it's when you start to doubt yourself, doubt your own capacity that you start making mistakes, that you start losing your shit and that you start doing things the wrong way.

When I graduated last may, it wasn't all happy news. I was a wreck, I was stressed out of my mind and I didn't know if nursing was going to be for me and I thought that being an ER nurse might be a mistake. I was glad to be over with school, but I knew I had this exam I had to pass in september. And trust me, my teachers warned me to be careful and to study all summer. They didn't believe in me, they thought I was a weak student. They also told me being a nurse in the emergency when you graduate is the worst thing you can do to your career. And they also said "if you fail your exam once, don't worry you have two other tries. It happens to everyone."

I was simply thinking to myself that I didn't want to pass my exam more than once.
Did I study all summer? No. I started studying in august. And I also repeated to myself, that one of the reasons I began nursing in the first place was because I wanted to work in the ER department. I didn't want my teachers who knew nothing about me to shape the rest of my career/life.

Once in the ER though, I had great people show me around and bring my confidence back up. Véro, my preceptor was one of them. She made me believe in myself again and made me love the nursing job that I once loved and fell out of loved during school. The real world and school are two different worlds, and it's funny how I prefer the real world.

Speaking of real world, all the nurses who started at the same time as me in the ER passed their exam... coincidence? No. The ER is okay to start your career. I love it. And I have been learning more now then I did in school. So #BOOM!

Also congrats to my little SOSO, who was breaking my balls for the last couple of months with her nervous and stressed out attitude. Love ya "bro" and I'm super happy for you, well deserved RN title!

All this to say, that if you believe in yourself, even just a little bit, I guarantee you will succeed, and this applies to every aspect of life. I can even translate it to weightlifting. If I get to nervous about a certain number on my bar and start doubting myself, I guarantee that bar will fail to go over my head.

I'm sorry, is this blog about nursing or weightlifting/crossfit?  Enough with the boring stuff. (one last happy dance !)

Weightlifting update: I've been training very hard. Hitting some good bars and we are already en route for the next competition which is being held on december 21st! The competition is going to be much closer to Montreal this time! Meaning Ya'll can come and watch all the athletes from UPT crossfit compete!!! YAY! it's going to be awesome!

I have new goals for the competition and I believe I can do it. I just need to be patient.


OH PATIENCE!

Guess what day it is: Day 1 of diet begins! booooo.


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KagZter
xoxo

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